Holding Your Breath: When Your Child Dies

Holding Your Breath: When Your Child Dies

TW: suicide, depression, grief I’ve started an art scholarship in my son Jairus’ name: all proceeds from my Winter Mindfulness Journal go to the scholarship. xo I’m choosing to process some of my grief out loud. First, it is helping me when I feel like I’ll explode with rage or pain. Second, maybe it’ll help another parent feel less alone. This is a very personal journey. Please click away if reading about someone else’s loss – and particulary the topic of suicide – will be triggering for you right now. ******** […]

Ordinary Magic

Ordinary Magic

Inside: I think magic comes in the ordinary – for those willing to see. Do you want more space or permission to pause and notice the ordinary magic of your life? The streets are black apart from the meager light cast by the streetlamps. But this is more than enough light to illuminate the sparkle of the snowflakes as they begin to fall. You sense magic in the air. You throw on a tuque and warm mitts, lace up fuzzy boots, and head out for an impromptu night-time stroll. You […]

My Beautiful Son Has Ended His Life

My Beautiful Son Has Ended His Life

Trigger Warning: Suicide, depression My beautiful son has ended his life after a long, ferocious battle with severe depression and persistent suicidal ideation. He wanted to live. Wanting to live and knowing how are two different things. And mental illness, just like cancer, is not something we choose. It is not shameful or a reflection of character. And it is not the fullness of who we are. Jairus was a deep thinker and challenged me to consider and see differently. He was playful, loved to tease, and loved when I’d play […]

On Holding Space for Ourselves

On Holding Space for Ourselves

I was in a bad car accident yesterday and by all accounts should not have walked away spirit and body bruised but whole and very much alive. It’s hard to type. Both wrists and arms hurt when I use them. But I process in writing so I think this is the kindest thing I can do for myself this morning. One person’s choice almost left my children parentless in the span of one heartbeat. Just one. That’s all it takes. But here I am. Very much awake. I feel. I […]

On Building a Right-Sized Life: I Choose Simple over Easy

On Building a Right-Sized Life: I Choose Simple over Easy

Inside: Building a right-sized life means a made from scratch, handcrafted, customized life that is honest, authentic, and helps us walk out each day on purpose. My right-sized life includes soulful simplicity. Yours can too. This post contains relevant referral links. I’m not convinced life has to be as complicated as we make it. We don’t control every circumstance but most of us still have a lot of room to choose. I choose simple and sustainable. Conscious or soulful simplicity allows me to live with purpose, health, and joy. It […]

Why It’s Time to Stop Waiting for Everything to be Okay

Why It’s Time to Stop Waiting for Everything to be Okay

Inside: Stop waiting for easy or perfect – life is messy but you are strong and brave enough to walk through each challenge or obstacle you face. This a guest post by Angie Schultz of The Becoming Place. Is everything going to be okay? How often have you said those words? Most of us have repeated some version of them many times, whether to ourselves or others. The predictable response: Everything will be okay, is meant to provide reassurance and hope. But those words can ring empty, even as you […]

You Can Find Your Way to Brave

You Can Find Your Way to Brave

Inside: I say yes to all of life and this includes saying yes to the soul-stretching and messy, get-your-hands-dirty kind of work required for showing up fully to life in every season, and in process I learn that I am brave. When I keep my eyes on my own path and give myself permission to play, try, explore, say yes to things that draw me without attachment to outcome, I am happy. When I hold space for others to be messy and imperfect and doing their best, and I hold […]

It Takes Courage to Become Who You Really Are

It Takes Courage to Become Who You Really Are

Inside: Growth is messy and it takes courage to become who you really are. But doing this hard, stretching work leads to freedom and a sense of rootedness and calm. These three keys are essential to intentional, sustainable growth. As funny as it sounds, it can take decades for us to become who we really are. We’re called to sift through external and internal pressures and ideas about how we ought to be, push back against outdated messages about gender roles or familial patterns, accept the invitation to peel away […]