A Journey to Freedom

A Journey to Freedom

My whole life I have pushed and fought for wholeness. For freedom: a sense that I am enough. Acceptable. Loveable as is. The belief that even if I am a little broken and fragile that I can still do this thing called life. I so clearly remember the day I realized I couldn’t try to kill myself again. I would have to find a way to live. But there have been many times since then that if someone had offered me a little blue pill to help me escape, I may just have taken them up on […]

Always Getting Ready to Live – or Joy in the Simple Things

Always Getting Ready to Live – or Joy in the Simple Things

When I was a teenager I dreamed of leaving home and beginning a career. In College, I wrote out 5 and 10-year plans and impatiently longed to meet a man who would treasure me and of the day I could own a home and begin a family. When my first-born arrived I fed my voracious appetite for parenting books, always so impatient for the next child-development milestone, constantly thinking ahead, pushing, dreaming and planning. These days I often find my thoughts drifting ahead to retirement and what life will be like in the season of empty nest. It […]

Your Life in Progress: Self Care

Your Life in Progress: Self Care

This is the first guest post in a series called “Your Life in Progress.” In this series we will hear from other women like you and I – women who are learning to love and care for themselves well. They are taking risks, making mistakes, trying new things and letting others go, sometimes struggling, but ultimately living beautiful, gentle lives. I’ve spent the past week delighted and honored that Krista asked me to write a guest post about self care on her wonderful blog. I’ve also spent the week wondering what to write! Self care […]

Beauty Comes in All Colors, Shapes & Sizes

Beauty Comes in All Colors, Shapes & Sizes

I come from a colorful family. Colorful in more ways than one! A big, sometimes boisterous, opinionated, stubborn, emotional family. I was gifted with not only 7 biological siblings but 4 adopted* ones. We are of varied ethnicity and as my siblings and I marry and grow families of our own, we have blossomed into an even greater mosaic of personalities and nationalities. It is beautiful. We discuss race and racial bias a fair bit in our household. We have experienced some ugliness and feel the undercurrent of fear and distrust as […]

If You Are a Fat Woman You Deserve to Eat Too

If You Are a Fat Woman You Deserve to Eat Too

If you are a fat woman, you have a right to feed your body well. To sit down for proper, nourishing meals several times a day and take your time eating them. To savor each bite and chew and look like you are enjoying your food. To eat in public in broad daylight rather than hiding in your vehicle or bedroom, late at night. If you are a fat woman, you have a right to indulge in luscious treats. Preferably involving dark chocolate. To lick your fingers off after eating them. To prepare yourself […]

From Vegetarian to Omnivore and My Thoughts on Eating Labels

From Vegetarian to Omnivore and My Thoughts on Eating Labels

I am a recovering vegetarian. At 19 I went vegan because eating dead animals disgusted me – I was an imperfect vegan, though. I didn’t have access to the internet or health books back then so I was fumbling around in the dark much of the time. After 6 years I added eggs into my diet (during my first pregnancy, due to cravings for them) and moved to a more lactovegetarian diet. Fast forward yet another 9 years, following my third pregnancy, and I became pescetarian – or added fish into my diet. Eating fish […]

30 Tips For Winter Wellness

30 Tips For Winter Wellness

Looking out the window, where I live, it seems that winter has ‘officially’ arrived. The snow and grey skies have inspired me to put out Christmas decorations and dust off the old Christmas CDs to infuse my home with more cheer. Fall brings with it feelings of grief and sadness for me (for many), memories of saying goodbye, and letting people go against my will. Transition is hard. Once I can settle myself into this place of ‘what is’ – a place of deeper peace and surrender, I am able to move forward again […]

Can You Trust a Chubby Nutritional Consultant? Or, Let’s Talk About Weight.

Can You Trust a Chubby Nutritional Consultant? Or, Let’s Talk About Weight.

Do you deserve to be loved, completely and with abandon, if you are not thin? Are you worthy of self-acceptance if you are not at your dream or ideal weight or body shape? There are women who would look at me and consider me fairly thin or ‘small’. Others would see my arms and hips and the roll around my belly when I sit and consider me fat or at least chubby. I am 5’5.5″ (that half inch is important!) and weigh 144 lbs-ish.* It fluctuates due to my Hashimoto’s. I […]