Come Home To Yourself: This Is Who I Am

^{Inside: I sat down to write today and this poem came out. Recently my clients have been telling me that my work is helping them find their way home to themselves. A beautiful testimonial. The journey home is a hard and messy one but it’s also the path of freedom.}

COME HOME

I am more than this body

if I’m pretty or not,

I am more than my thoughts and my mind-body health,

I am more than my pain 

and the depth of my sorrow,

so much more than my knowledge 

and where I have been.

I am not what I wear and not what I own,

I am not only mother, wife, or friend.

I am so much more than my scars,

and more than my fear,

or what I do or how I see or all the ways that I serve.

More than my longing,

my capacity for hope,

I learn who I am as I come home to myself.

This path isn’t easy,

I am brave but also weary,

so I listen intently for the voice of my spirit.

You are a teacher she says,

A hope-bearer too,

A safe-house for others,

a light in the window.

You are a tangle of strength and struggle and fire,

A nobody

A warrior

truth-teller and writer.

I am stubborn and questioning, I want more and need better,

disillusioned and disheartened,

soft and hurting. Messy human.

A drop in the bucket,

one seed in a forest,

a mere fleck of possibility along the arc of human story.

One of a kind, easily lost in a crowd,

rusty, unfinished, breath-taking artwork.

I am neither my rage nor am I my grief,

my limited capacity to do or perform,

not my self-judgment or your perception,

I am so much more.

I am breath

and swirling energy

I am one choice at a time.

I’m all of it and none of it, here today, tomorrow transformed,

mired briefly in fleshly experience and then

unshackled by language, cognition, and time.

Krista xo

NOW WHAT? Check out my Mini-Courses and Seasonal Mindfulness Journals. My hope is that my words and work help you come home to yourself as they remind you that you matter – right now in the middle of all the real life messiness and beauty, with all your hope, heartache, and learned patterns of coping – and as they encourage you to keep showing up, one small step at a time. I also invite you to learn how you can work with me 1:1 if you’re ready to do the stretching work of remembering your way to freedom.