Walking Each Other Home: 19 Gifts of this Year as I Walked My Son Home

Walking Each Other Home: 19 Gifts of this Year as I Walked My Son Home

Walking each other home is a privilege. Here are 19 gifts I’ve picked up as I walked alongside my son through the final year of his life. TW: suicide, depression, grief On a cold wintry night, just over a year ago, my son and I sobbed and argued together as he finally admitted the truth about his plan to die. As his mama, I already knew. I knew him better than any other human on this planet. I feel like I knew him in ways he did not know himself […]

My Beautiful Son Has Ended His Life

My Beautiful Son Has Ended His Life

Trigger Warning: Suicide, depression My beautiful son has ended his life after a long, ferocious battle with severe depression and persistent suicidal ideation. He wanted to live. Wanting to live and knowing how are two different things. And mental illness, just like cancer, is not something we choose. It is not shameful or a reflection of character. And it is not the fullness of who we are. Jairus was a deep thinker and challenged me to consider and see differently. He was playful, loved to tease, and loved when I’d play […]

What If My Small Dreams Are My Greatness?

What If My Small Dreams Are My Greatness?

This is a guest post from Genevieve V. Georget of gengeorget.com “You’re dreams aren’t big enough.” Those were the words. Those were the words that came at me from across the couch and shattered my heart. I was in another country at the time.  In another time zone.  In what felt like another Universe.  I had stepped outside the comfort zone of my quaint little neighborhood in suburban Ottawa and bought a last minute ticket to attend a creativity conference 4,500 kilometers away. Upon landing, I somehow found myself sitting […]

Change Comes Softly

Change Comes Softly

Change comes softly. We gathered in the hospital room, taking our turns at his side. Whispering goodbyes that were wholly insufficient. And then he was gone. But it had been a year and a half of prognosis and treatment, of driving back and forth never knowing if this time would be the last I got to sit with him, hoping and needing to somehow absorb every last bit of life wisdom he had to spare. Before he left. There was not enough time and more than we were initially given. […]

Living Slow and Simple On a Meandering Path

Living Slow and Simple On a Meandering Path

I’m hard-wired for slow and simple. Partly by nature, partly for self-protection – this is how I’ve known to survive with a highly sensitive spirit and a tendency toward anxiety – I’ve made conscious decisions from childhood to guard white space in my life and keep things simple. I’ve chosen a slow path. This is not to say that I’ve never fallen into the trap of perfectionism, performance or people-pleasing, nor that my life has been without seasons of struggle where I felt so far beyond overwhelmed that I couldn’t […]

Pursuing Simplicity Isn’t Always Easy But It Is Worth It

Pursuing Simplicity Isn’t Always Easy But It Is Worth It

Experience tells me kids show us who they are from a very young age. I never woke up one day as an adult and decided that I wanted a slow and simple life; pursuing simplicity was a natural part of my hardwiring from childhood. I don’t think there’s one right way to do life and my pursuit of simplicity may very well look profoundly different from yours. This is part of the joy of crafting a purposeful life; you don’t have to wear anyone else’s labels. And it is so […]

Beauty Comes in All Colors, Shapes & Sizes

Beauty Comes in All Colors, Shapes & Sizes

I come from a colorful family. Colorful in more ways than one! A big, sometimes boisterous, opinionated, stubborn, emotional family. I was gifted with not only 7 biological siblings but 4 adopted* ones. We are of varied ethnicity and as my siblings and I marry and grow families of our own, we have blossomed into an even greater mosaic of personalities and nationalities. It is beautiful. We discuss race and racial bias a fair bit in our household. We have experienced some ugliness and feel the undercurrent of fear and distrust as […]