How To Be Still When The World is Spinning Wildly

How To Be Still When The World is Spinning Wildly

Before my eyes fully open, I feel the call to hurry. The whisper of not enough time, too far behind, how will I ever keep up. I hide under the covers a while longer, procrastinating, ruminating, unwilling to spend another day spinning wildly like the frenetic, unhappy, world around me. I want to be still. Lying in bed, I remind myself of the truth that I can choose my own thoughts and how to move through the world. I take responsibility for what I can and sometimes this means ignoring […]

10 Truths To Help You Live Like You Love Yourself

10 Truths To Help You Live Like You Love Yourself

One day, shortly after the birth of my third child, I made the decision to love myself. I was done trying to mould my body or beautiful, quirky self into a tiny, ill-fitting box. I’ve been showing up and practicing this decision every single day for the past 12 years. Living like we love ourselves, speaking to ourselves with kindness, laying down judgment, nourishing ourselves like we deserve good things, none of this happens without deliberate, conscious choice. We walk it out, day by day. We struggle, we hide, we step […]

Three Wishes: A Legacy to my Daughters

Three Wishes: A Legacy to my Daughters

My 17 year old made this for me last year. My handwriting sits at the top, followed by my mom’s, followed by her mom’s. My girls are growing up. They haven’t had a grandma around to love and spoil them. To tell them stories of who I was as a little girl or to speak life into them when they struggle. They no longer have a great-grandma to tell stories of the way things used to be, to help put things into perspective, or to demonstrate what growing old with […]

Kissed by Wisdom: Thoughts on Joyful Aging

Kissed by Wisdom: Thoughts on Joyful Aging

Joyful aging is not about losing self or even becoming a better version of self. I think it is a journey of becoming more fully yourself.  Kissed by wisdom. I see my body in a photo like she is not me. She has gained weight this past year and grown some new sparkly hair. I thought she was taller. I have often wished she would bend to fit your pretty mold. But she is faithful and her scars and dimples reflect some of the messy journey I am on. In […]

If You Find Yourself Back in the Valley Again

If You Find Yourself Back in the Valley Again

I have been crying a lot these past days. I haven’t been quite feeling myself all year. It started with me giving up one of my last crutches. Wine took the edge off my anxiety and allowed me to feel more at ease in social situations, including family gatherings. After giving up wine, my weight started creeping up consistently. My anxiety started amping up months ago and then rose to a place it hadn’t been in years. A very uncomfortable place. I persisted with all the quality mood-supporting nutrition and supplements and the mindset […]

Learning to Listen for a Life of Purpose, Health & JOY

Learning to Listen for a Life of Purpose, Health & JOY

I knew within two weeks of meeting my husband in Québec that I would marry him. It was not a logical choice – he was a Francophone on a student visa from West Africa and didn’t speak any English; I spoke limited high school French. He was a carnivorous athlete; I a vegan book lover – about as unathletic as they come. But there was an unshakeable, unmistakable knowing within me. We married a year later and this summer will mark 23 years of sharing an imperfect but beautiful life together. Maybe the right choice cannot […]

Does FEAR Hold You Captive?

Does FEAR Hold You Captive?

Inside: Don’t allow fear to hold you captive. You don’t have to believe every thought that drops into your mind. You can learn to challenge fear. I have allowed fear to shackle me in many ways over my 45 years. But I am grateful for this stubbornness within me, a fire passed along from my mama I think, that has propelled me to slowly, sometimes painfully, forge ahead; which calls me push back against status quo, through fear, into possibility. It is hard to live a simple but purposeful life unless we learn to challenge fear. […]