Holding Your Breath: When Your Child Dies

Holding Your Breath: When Your Child Dies

TW: suicide, depression, grief I’ve started an art scholarship in my son Jairus’ name: all proceeds from my Winter Mindfulness Journal go to the scholarship. xo I’m choosing to process some of my grief out loud. First, it is helping me when I feel like I’ll explode with rage or pain. Second, maybe it’ll help another parent feel less alone. This is a very personal journey. Please click away if reading about someone else’s loss – and particulary the topic of suicide – will be triggering for you right now. ******** […]

11 Questions to End the Year On Purpose

11 Questions to End the Year On Purpose

Inside: Living on purpose doesn’t mean having light for the whole path or knowing all the answers. It simply means living an examined life, awake and intentional, shifting course as needed, understanding you get to choose who and how you want to be in the world. Here are 11 questions to help you end your year on purpose. Sometimes I wake up with thoughts or questions circling through my heart & mind. “What do you want?” I asked myself over and over one morning as I went through my morning routine. […]

Living Grateful for the Wisdom in Every Season

Living Grateful for the Wisdom in Every Season

Inside: Mindful living means choosing to live grateful for the gifts in every season. It means consciously and stubbornly mining for these gifts. This is a reflection about what mindful living taught me as I walked with grief through the seasons. It’s human to experience ebb and flow in life: seasons of transition and even uncertainty; tilting between self-confidence and self-doubt; shifting levels of energy or productivity; changes in what you need or want. Death and new life. Life is messy. And beautiful. Mindful living means choosing to live grateful […]

Why Feeling Stuck Might Actually Be a Happy Thing

Why Feeling Stuck Might Actually Be a Happy Thing

Inside: Feeling stuck is as beautiful a part of life as the times of flow and productivity. It’s a happy thing. It’s a call to do the work to get honest about what you want and need so you can get unstuck and move into alignment and purposeful action once again. I’ve provided 10 action steps and a load of practical resources to help you get unstuck. This post contains referral links. I launched excitedly into chatting about and writing this post. And then I got stuck. There are moments […]

Change Comes Softly

Change Comes Softly

Change comes softly. We gathered in the hospital room, taking our turns at his side. Whispering goodbyes that were wholly insufficient. And then he was gone. But it had been a year and a half of prognosis and treatment, of driving back and forth never knowing if this time would be the last I got to sit with him, hoping and needing to somehow absorb every last bit of life wisdom he had to spare. Before he left. There was not enough time and more than we were initially given. […]

10 Science-Based Self Care Tips for Fall & Winter

10 Science-Based Self Care Tips for Fall & Winter

The rain comes down, steady. I open my windows wide – breathing in deep the dregs of summer and anticipating, slightly anxious, the cold, dark months ahead. The changes come, slow and subtle, but my body feels them all the same. A little less light, a daub more grey. My right hand aches with cold some days though the temperature shift is slight. Since its replacement, my hip no longer plays the barometer as it has since childhood but my body feels cold to the bone and shivers in anticipation. […]

Kissed by Wisdom: Thoughts on Joyful Aging

Kissed by Wisdom: Thoughts on Joyful Aging

Joyful aging is not about losing self or even becoming a better version of self. I think it is a journey of becoming more fully yourself.  Kissed by wisdom. I see my body in a photo like she is not me. She has gained weight this past year and grown some new sparkly hair. I thought she was taller. I have often wished she would bend to fit your pretty mold. But she is faithful and her scars and dimples reflect some of the messy journey I am on. In […]

We Can Run But We Can’t Hide

We Can Run But We Can’t Hide

Inside: Whenever I’m on the cusp of change, resistance shows up and I have the urge to run again. But we can’t outrun ourselves. This post contains affiliate links. The winding drive back into the Peace valley is beautiful. I have to keep my eyes on the lane ahead of me and the construction that takes up part of the narrow winding road, though, so I am unable to fully take in the view or look over, across the river that cuts through the town, to try and spot the […]