Hey, friends (we may not all know each other up close and personal but I’m calling you friend anyway), I want to share something that’s on my heart and that feels important to say.
The reality of my life is that I am not in a position to hold space for others walking through suicide loss or trauma. I am a mama whose heart is still broken, whose body is still trying to come to terms with what I’ve seen and heard and lived through.
Many of you have followed my story about the loss of my beautiful son to severe depression and suicide and my journey through the wilds of grief and trauma/PTSD including regular, intense panic attacks. You’ve been compassionate and supportive and you probably don’t know how much that has meant to me. Community matters – and my work is not just about making money but it is truly also about vocation and building honest & brave community.
I get many emails and private messages sharing your pain and your heart and I welcome this.
I also get many requests for help – requests sometimes for yourself but more often for people you love. People who are hurting and walking through trauma or suicide loss. Your heart shines through loud and clear. I ache when I read your stories and requests for help or comfort for the one you love.
I know it can be incredibly hard to piece together the right support for mental illness for your child or your friend’s child or for suicide loss. It’s expensive and not accessible to everyone, it requires tons of emotional energy and trial-and-error and not giving up right when you’re at your most depleted, it is scary and emotionally fraught and I get this. Believe me, I get this, and I know this is why many of you seek my support.
The reality of my life though is that I am not in a position to hold space for others walking through suicide loss or trauma.
I am a mama whose heart is still broken, whose body is still trying to come to terms with what I’ve seen and heard and lived through.
I am not a therapist or grief counsellor and I wish I could fix your pain but I can’t “fix” my own. I can only take one baby step at a time, one breath at a time, and keep looking for beauty and hope.
It takes incredible strength and courage to keep showing up to life, heart-open, body-willing when your life is rocked to the core. I see you and hear you and care deeply about you.
My mini-courses and Seasonal Mindfulness Journals, the Brave & Beautiful Community, and 1:1 coaching are all ways I can support you. Ways that I take my story and struggle and strength and study and offer it to you in ways I am able (and within my scope of practice) to help you (or your friends) show up fully to life – with joy and on purpose – in every season.
I walk my talk and everything I pour into my work is the HOW I apply to my own life as I navigate what it means to be human in a messy world. These tools or opportunities to connect with me and get support are what I have to offer in this season.
Thank you for hearing me and for being here with me.
Love Krista xo